You were in my dream again.

I said goodbye. Just like I did before and I was trying to cope with not having you. But there were parties and I saw you. But we couldn’t say anything, or rather we wouldn't.

Then we went on some trip where you go with a bunch of friends and strangers. There was a hill, mostly muddy, that you can walk down that led to a pool of water (kind of like an ocean where you can snorkel and stuff).  The point is to walk down the hill and jump in the water-it symbolizes a new life and fresh start. You said needed to go without me, to jump in the water without me.  So you went with a friend. I saw you walk away from me and it broke my heart. You and the friend got everyone pumped. Then, when you were done, I just watched you and I was heart broken. Everyone jumped and then started to leave. I didn’t jump. I was just there-lost;it was like a scene in a music video or a movie where one person is just standing there while there is movement going on all around. There were very few people there. But you were still there and then you came to me. I’m still crying and a mess because how was I supposed to live without you. We start heading out and walking up the muddy slope together towards the exit because you were talking to me. You tell me “so i got my fresh start and wanna be with you.”
You wanted to be with me. “What’s the point of doing this if I don’t have someone to share it with” and I smiled, because I had you again.

Then, I woke up.