Hi

It is a little sad that I don't use this that much anymore..The whole reason I came to this blog was to write my thoughts and to read your blog...but you arent here anymore..So what is the point? I miss the old days but you said we can be happy again.

I hope so.

(clears throat)

I still love you.
Always.

I'm single.

& that's the biggest mistake of my life.

Tumblr.

I have one now.
8dots1heart.tumblr.com

Follow if youd like(:

OH MY GOSH!
I REAAALLLLYY want aladdin and jasmine shoes!! If anyone buys them for me for graduation, I WILL love you forever!!!

"I think about you everyday"

How'd we end up this way?

"I think the mistake is that people commit to who that person is right then and not the person they are going to become," Timberlake said. "That's the art of staying together, is changing together. When you say it like that, it seems damn near impossible, right?"

Untouchable.

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you

Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/untouchable-lyrics.html ]
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

But your untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

And in the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh

Like a million little stars spelling out your name
They're spelling out your name, oh

Tribute to Edgar Allan Poe

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love -
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulcher
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me
Yes! that was the reason
(as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we
Of many far wiser than we
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
In the sepulcher there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

TW

I move freely,
I make you dance,
I “remove” the bad from you,
You make me move,
You make me dance,
You make me want to be better,
Which in turn makes you better,
I need your sturdiness as an escape from my constant sway,
I never stay still but at times
I get caught in your branches,
I am the wind,
And you the tree.

Poetic take on things

I have no idea what to say,
I am not funny like Matt,
I am not poetic like Hannah or Elena,
I am not quick on my feet,
I have a habit of not finishing because I don’t know how to end.
Am I writing to say something or can I just write?
Then I come to this: can I write?
I know I can make words form but do they mean anything?
Does writing have to mean anything?
So I end with this,
Is this worthwhile?

The only reason reason needs is reason.

Because I am not confident enought to post on moodle, you will be seeing my unpublished moodle poems, thoughts stories on here. I am afraid of judgement, of no one reading.
At least here, I know no one is reading, there arent any potential readers out there, but on moodle, there ARE people who will read...It is sad and hurtful if no one reads on moodle..so here, to all of my "fellow" readers, enjoy these next few weeks of frequent posts.

Books to read.

-Are You There Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea.
-Lies Chelsea Handler Told Me
-Bossypants

That's all for now.
Gotsta go.

Foolish

And I may feel like a fool, but I'm the only one dancing with you.

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Tonight.
I didn't know my life could be better
Until that may when we were together
Every weekend it's just me and you
We laugh and talk and hold each other close.

I miss you and baby it won't be long
Before you're gone
I just want to let you know
I love you so.

You're away doing great things
You left me here alone to spread my wings
I just want to lose track of where I'm at
Cause I'm waiting for you to come back.

I've missed you cause it's been long
[So long] Since you've been gone
I just want to let you know
I still love you so

You're home and I still wear my ring
You're missin' me look makes my heart sing
We're smiling then you kiss me
I didn't know how great this love could really be

I missed you cause it was long
Since you were gone
I just want you to know
I love you so.


--I wrote this for you before you left, I still mean it(:

Two years

Tomorrow

Nostalgia.

Your smile makes me see clearer, if you could only see in the mirror what I see
Tell me tell me what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that Im the only one that's vulnerable, impossible


Thank Goodness for moving on (:

Remember a few years back...

"Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holdin' back the wind
It took a while for her to figure out
She could run but when she did
She was long gone, long gone"

Me and You.

Park(:

I miss you.

It's just one of those days when I wish you were here and I am terribly lonely. I miss you terribly and I cannot wait for you to come home.. Out of all the boys I could be with, I only want you...

:D

Nowhere

Jobs and TV

1. I think I want to be a Vet..

&

2. Secret Life is coming back(:

The difference

between you and any other boy is that you would let me use your toothbrush..

And not be grossed out
(:

If we cannot be the same...

If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right....

I want my love to be like this..

"And when you feel like you're drowning..."

Darling, I've been drowning since you left..

SMH.

My acronym.

I fell in love with you all over again.

I don't wanna know it's over,

'Cause ignorance is bliss.

What.

The. Fuck. Do. I. Do....?

Why does it have to be so difficult....


What do I do??!!

Happy

year and 10 months Alfonso Martinez.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

"Don't

say things about people that matter to me."

You matter to me, even though you arent here, you still matter..I still care.
I miss you...

Oh gurl.

I HATE that you know you are attractive.
I HATE when you cut me off.

You think you are better than everyone else, and that just isn't right.

I don't know why you have to be selfish-towards your best friend!! I feel bad for her, because you SHOULDN'T care.

This guy...

Thinks he has our respect.
Thinks he deserves it.
Thinks he is a hot shot.
Thinks he is the business.


Let me tell you one thing, you are nothing to us.

SS&SS

It is bittersweet.

I am bipolar about this topic.
I laugh and then a short while later, I cry.

I miss you.

Hello Computer Graphics (:

"Oh (Syrena)...are you in love with me too?"

It's the way you do the things you do that make me fall in love with you...




Damn.

This still makes me smile.

http://superilapatro.blogspot.com/2008/11/28-reasons-why-should-you-should-date.html

I am a tad behind on this

Day thing because I lost track of the days.
So I will write a whole bunch here(:

My favorite Movie-
I have a few: Love and Basketball~it has the sport I love and romance and a good story line. It is so cute!! I recommend!
Aladdin~It is my favorite disney movie! It is really cute and there is a story line type of thing behind it which makes it all better. It is funny and I could watch it every day if I wished.
Baby Mama~Oh my goodness..This is so funny! It always makes me laugh with "little tiny glasses!!" ahh, it is so amazing.
There are so many more, but I can think of some and add later.

Someone who facinates me-
Ok, so, cheesy but Alfonso. He makes me think and see the world through different eyes. He makes me smile and his intelligence intimidates me. He is funny and dependant and strong willed. His whole way of seeing things is different than mine and that is so intriguing. He is gone for two years, not many people can do that-I probably couldnt. It takes a lot for someone to do that and that is wonderful that he did.

What Kind of Person Attracts me-
Smart. Cute. Funny. Spontaneous(to a certain extent). Adventureous. Fun. Charming. Caring. Chivilarous. Sweet. Sensitive(but not a lot).
I am having a brain crash though and I cant concentrate, so that is all for now..

Alfonso Martinez.

I miss you terribly.

Ryan P.

So Gorgeous.

5 Attractive guys

Changed in the past 2 years.

I was...15 two years ago.
I would like to think that I have grown tremendously and that I have learned from my mistakes but I know I may make the same ones. I have been dating Alfonso since I was 15 and he has made me more stubborn and happy and he has made me see the world in a different light. He is realistic and he accepts me. I have become more outspoken. I am different. In a good way.

I am miscounting..

So I will just stop.

My favoorttiiee tv show is hands down Law and Order:SVU!
That is the most addicting show I have ever..well, watched.
The story line is awesome and I love how I never get bored
with any episode, even if I have seen it. I just recently spent
my Sunday watching Law and Order for...7 hours (:
It is a good show, I recommend it.

Happiness?

My creation.
In background of 1st picture: I just want you to be happy (over and over again.)
In background of 2nd picture: I am not happy.
In background of 3rd picture: I am not happy.

Noventa.

Education is important.
I know, that is bland and boring but, it is what it is.
I want to go to College and learn more to get a better job.
I want to teach little kids that school is boring, but important
and there isnt a way to get around it. I know many people
who have given up, and honestly, I have thought about giving
up myself, but I havent...And that has made all the difference.

The

reason I love you is because you like my feet...

...And because you like the way I sing (:

Ochenta.

I have disrespected my parents.
I realize after the fact that is isnt right but sometimes, they just dont understand.
It seems the only way to get through to my mom is to yell at her, like I have, and
Yeah, it hurts but she is very hard-headed...
It is ridiculous...
Dont do it kids, or at least, dont do it often.

Diecisiete.

I belive in:
God, Family, Love, Friends, Trust, Happiness, Loyalty, Education, Patience.

Dieciseis.

My highs and lows:
High-1 Year. Starting Varsity Basketball(16pts-my game high)
Low-Alfonso leaving

Ugghh, I cant really remember this past year,
I know it was fun though(:

Quince.

I dont really understand this...Mainstream music, is music.
I like some of it, I dont like some of it.
It doesnt matter really...