the horrible feeling.

i am single....
i couldnt make it a month.
i am going to write here what i wished i could
have said to you.
i apologize for not, the tears came to easy...

ok here we go.
the reason i want to be just friends is because i am hurting you,
so much, its really killing you.
you worry about what i do-maybe not that persay but something kinda
like that-sounded more explained in my head.
i cant love you without getting over someone else-i am not sure i wanna do that though-
and you know that. i love you-really i do..it hurts to know that i could hurt you more,
i wouldnt be able to live with myself if i knew that you were hurt-which you are and its
killing me...i cant stop...its hard...i am sorry...
i will always be here for you-please dont stop talking to me-like you do; i love you, i always will, no matter where life takes us i know that i wont ever and will never forget you. you mean to
much to me and i wont let myself...
this may not seem hard for me but it is, i know i am doing the right thing..really i do.

TAKEN FROM THE NOTEBOOK

"I couldn't sleep last night because
I know that it's over between us.
I'm not bitter anymore, because I know
that what we had was real.
And if in some distant place in the future
we see each otherin our new lives,
I'll smile at you with joy
and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees
learning from each other and growing in love.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul
and makes us reach for more,
that plants a fire in our hearts
and brings peace to our minds.
And that's what you've given me.
That's what I'd hoped to give to you forever.
I love you, I'll be seeing you.
-Syrena..."