Grandpa Ben

My grandpa died Monday. He was having a lot of issues with his health for a while now. But he went peacefully in his sleep. So I suppose that's the good thing. This is the closest death to me-ever. I think I am still in the shock phase. I am pretty busy with school and work so I have not had much time to think about it either.

I am sitting here at school. People watching. Everyone has places to be, people to hug, skateboards to ride. I'm one person in this campus and I have my own things going on. And so do they.

My grandpa was in the middle of a lawsuit. In 2010 he had to have some teeth removed and they put him under anesthesia. However, there was a complication and he stopped breathing. They did not know what to do and they were very unprepared. We, as a family, feel like ever since this procedure happened, his health has deteriorated even more and that the people who did his surgery are to blame.

They are happy though, because he is dead. Meaning the lawsuit is dropped. But my grandpa deserves justice. And we will fight this.

I loved my grandpa and I became closer with him the passed several years. He was funny. But also very grumpy. And mean. But he was also loving.

My cousin was always everyone's favorite. I think that's why I tried so hard to succeed. Not to be everyone's favorite, but to show them that I am worth loving and worth something. I always wanted to ask my grandpa if he loved me or was proud of me.

Now I never will.
️Rest easy big guy. We love you and will miss you always.