Let's get high...NOT

I feel like I am the only person not interested in smoking, whether it be cigarettes, pot, hookah, etc. Every one on facebook talks about how much fun they have smoking and how cool it is and blah. But that is just not interesting to me and I dont want to associate myself with people who do that. Recently, S smoked and I didnt know how to deal with it. I still dont. What if it happens again? What if it turns into something worse than hookah? I didnt sign up for a smoker and I dont want to deal with them. I worry whenever S is with his friends because he always does stupid stuff with them. He wants me to trust him..well I cant. I already have trust issues and then to lie to me about stuff like that just makes it worse. NO! I WONT SETTLE! I am not going to be with someone like that and if he does anything like that again, it is over. I just dont want it to be...

I dont want to lower my standards more. If I am not reason enough to not do it then I guess he isnt worth my love.

It still hurts that he lied..